Meditation for July 25

“Meditation brings wisdom; lack of meditation leaves ignorance. ” – Buddha

My first impression of this quote was how it applies to wisdom of self.  Our day to day lives are hectic and loud; leaving little time for reflection and connection to Deity. Being ignorant of ourselves is part of why we get “stuck” in unhealthy patterns and beliefs.  These are components of both PTSD and depression- what we believe about ourselves and the world.  Negative patterns and beliefs affect relationships, work, life.  We are often ignorant of our ignorance.  Meditation slows us down.  It brings a sense of inner peace.  With this, we can work on self knowledge and start change.

This  is where meditation can be useful.  Slow down.   Focus on breath and gratitude for simple things.  Relax and reflect.  Allow yourself time.

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Vulnerability and Shame

There are two TED Talks by Brene Brown.  One deals with vulnerability, the other with shame.  They overlap.  Shame prevents us from being vulnerable.  They both keep us from being authentic, creative, innovative, and having healthy relationships.  Listening to vulnerability and shame prevent us from feeling connected to others.  Connection is vital to our mental an ps emotional lives.

I have problems with both.  Vulnerability is weakness and dangerous.  It is the opposite of strength.  But it really isn’t.  It takes courage to face yourself in the mirror and be willing to let go of who you think you are and be vulnerable.  

Shame is easy to carry.  We all have shame.  Some of us just carry a shit load that we really don’t need.  You see this in PTSD all the time.  Shame and blame games.  

With the brain injury, I was thrown into having to be vulnerable in some ways.  I had to accept help.  I had to let go of what I did as who I am.  I had to try to let go of shame that I carried for years- now a new load added shame because of the TBI and feelings of failure.

Check out both of the presentations.  

Vulnerability

Shame

Watch the one  about vulnerability first.  They’re worth the time!

The Tree

The strongest and most majestic tree gently stirs, its leaves sighing in the soft breeze.Its roots sunk deeply into the earth reaching for the sky.  

But even the the most vigorous tree can be toppled by the howling winds of storm. Torn from its roots, it slowly dies leaving skeletal remains. 

There is a glimmer of life in death. A seed may sprout to new life.

The Firefly

The Firefly

Ever wonder what the firefly feels
Lighting up the night sky?
Then captured in a jar of glass
Limited flight and beauty lost.
The night sky is there beyond
The invisible boundary
But not obtainable
Until someone sets you free.

 

Lightning bugs in a jar-soft focus diffusion through glass, enhanced with photoshop

Lightning bugs in a jar-soft focus diffusion through glass, enhanced with photoshop

Being a Misfit

This TED talk came up on my podcast list today.  It’s about being a misfit: where in some ways, some people just don’t fit in.  

The speaker relates her story of being broken by circumstances and not feeling like part of society- being a misfit and how that impacted her life.   The last few minutes are powerful.  We are beautiful even in our brokenness and failures.  We can rebuild our lives as many times as needed.  

It really is something that I needed to hear again.

Being a Misfit

When the World is Breaking Down

Afterlife: Ingrid Michelson

This song means to me life after trauma, fear,hopelessness.

When the world is breaking down around you

Taking everything that you know

What you didn’t know

Is that we can go forever if we want to

We can live inside of a moment

The one that we own

You and me we got this
You and me we’re beautiful, beautiful

We all, we all, we’re gonna be alright
We got, we got, we always got the fight in us

We all, we all, we’re gonna live tonight

Like there’s no tomorrow ’cause we’re the afterlife

Living like you’re dying isn’t living at all
Give me your cold hands put them on my heart

Raise a glass to everyone who thinks

They’ll never make it through this life

To live a brand-new start

You and me we got this
You and me we’re beautiful, beautiful

We all, we all, we’re gonna be alright
We got, we got, we always got the fight in us

We all, we all, we’re gonna live tonight

Like there’s no tomorrow ’cause we’re the afterlife

‘Cause we’re the afterlife

‘Cause we’re the afterlife

Every time I close my eyes I hear your favorite song
Telling me not to run, not to worry anymore

I can hold on tight to nothing better than the rest

So it’s now or never more

We all, we all, we’re gonna be alright
We got the fight in us

We all, we all, we’re gonna live tonight

Like there’s no tomorrow ’cause we’re the afterlife

We all, we all, we’re gonna be alright
We got, we got, we always got the fight in us

We all, we all, we’re gonna live tonight

Like there’s no tomorrow ’cause we’re the afterlife

‘Cause we’re the afterlife

‘Cause we’re the afterlife

We all, we all, we’re gonna be alright
We got, we got, we always got the fight in us

We all, we all, we’re gonna live tonight

Like there’s no tomorrow ’cause we’re the afterlife
Click on link to hear the song.

Afterlife