Sad Day

DIP KaliyahThe choice to send a beloved fur child to Rainbow Bridge is a difficult decision. It is but wrenching. I made that choice for Kaliyah today .

She was an independent,curious, and adventurous soul. Kaliyah was always a bit of a solo ferret whose main enjoyments were exploring, stealing, and stashing. She enjoyed good cuddle, play, and grooming sessions with other ferrets and Cat Brighid.

The cage is empty now. All my ferrets wait at Rainbow Bridge. 

It is strangely quiet. No thumping as a ferret leaps from a hammock and engages in a good scratching session in the cage; no scrabble of ferret paws on the floor; no more chasing a ferret that just stole my running socks-again. I have always had a ferret-or two,or three, or five- since 1999. Now the cage is empty, silent, forlorn.  
The right choice are always the hardest. I’m relieved Kaliyah is no longer sick and in pain. When she perked up a bit at the veterinary clinic, there was a part of me that wondered if it was the right choice. I wanted to take her home so much. But I knew her body was done. 

fly high. at the Bridge


Eyes shine

Ferret dances and

Dooks while chasing toys

Then through a forbidden door

Left open beckoning exploration

Found the socks

Hidden safely


Letter to Bobby

Dear Bobby,

Today came  way too soon.   But, it was time.

I will remember you chasing after your remote control car.  I’d drive it in a circle and you’d chase it around and around.  You really loved  to chase it across the room.  I generally ran it into some piece of furniture or another or run it into you.  It didn’t matter; as long as you had the chance to capture it.

you loved those crochet eggs.  One time, you got into the box where I stored them.  You had every single egg out of the box and hidden somewhere around the room, in several different stash spots.  I guess I put the eggs all in one box?  Kaliyah would grab an egg and take it to her stash spot.  You’d chase after her, just to get the egg.

I missed you today.  You weren’t on the feeding mat, looking up at me, waiting for your dinner.  Just Kaliyah stood there, looking puzzled.  She looked for you tonight.  All your sleep and stash spots, in the carrier, double checked the cage.  My sweatshirt was on the ground.  She smelled you on it and sniffed hard, then climbed thorough the shirt.  She so wanted to find you.  The house feels different.  I looked for you in the cage when I got Kaliyah out to play.  I fixed your soupie with your medication before I remembered.

You were a special little one.  You had such a hard start.  The first I knew of you was by a Facebook post by a ferret rescue.  She told the story of you being found in a vacant lot with a dislocated shoulder and broken leg.  You had three surgeries and had the leg pinned.  When you were ready, I was  the lucky human to be your forever home.  Just seeing your attitude encourages me to keep going. You went through so much pain.  Yet, you loved.  You ran.  You played.  You made yourself a home.  You rolled with the changes.

i know you’re at Rainbow Bridge tonight.  The tumor is gone, your leg is whole, you’re healthy and happy.  No more pain. No more nausea.  No more dragging a large belly full of tumor.  Have fun, little man.  You have so many new playmates. Go play, run, war dance.  Be a happy little ferret again.  You are welcome to visit as you wish.

We will see each other again.  And go together over the Rainbow Bridge.

Bobby Ferret   (2011-2/17/2016 )


So Fast

I took Bobby Ferret to the vet today.  I felt a lump in his abdomen during nail cutting last night. It wasn’t there last week.  Unfortunately, my fear was confirmed.  He has a cancerous tumor in his belly.  Unless the predinsone slows the growth, he will go to the Bridge within a month.  The prednisone might give him two to four months.  It’s moving fast, so the prognosis of the longer time is not good. I opted to provide hospice support rather than more invasive treatments.  He’s an older ferret and surgery or chemo would cause more pain/illness and be no guarantee that the tumor can be removed.

Bobby’s story.  Someone found Bobby in a vacant lot in Spokane.  His right front leg was broken and the left shoulder dislocated.  He received vet care and went up for adoption.  I am the lucky person who became his “mom.”  That was five years ago. 

He healed fine and is a wonderful little ferret.  He loves to chase his remote control care, playing with the knit eggies, and cuddling.  He also enjoys his Carnivore Care and stealing the cat food.  He also is a little explorer. Outdoor trips are a blast for him.  So much to sniff and dig in.  He is a survivor.  
Bobby was the name given to him by the rescue.  I kept it.the name matched him and was his “survivor name.” I identify with him.  He went through three sugeries, faced a lot of pain, and survived to be a healthy, happy ferret.  He joined my family a few months after my brain injury.  I survived too.  His life changed because of his injury.  Mine did too.  He didn’t let the injury get in the way of a ferret’s life.  I try to not allow my injury to ruin mine. I try to have a good “ferret life” so to speak. Losing any ferret is rough.  He’s a special one.

Last fall

 Watching a ferret sicken and eventually having to make the decision to help him/her to Rainbow Bridge is so difficult and sad.  I hate having to make these decisions.  Yet, I owe it to the furchild to make the best choice for them.  Quality of life over quantity. In the long run, life with ferrets is worth the difficult decisions and the grief losing a ferret brings. 

Five years went by so fast.  I was trusted with a very special ferret and he has brought me comfort, laughter, and now tears.  Five years isn’t enough.  Hell, 20 years would not be enough. 

In the meantime, he is still with me, if only for a short time.  That matters. Even when he goes to Rainbow Bridge, I know our spirits will cross paths again.   Souls don’t die.

Cat and Ferrets

Four ferrets helped raised Brigid from about 10 weeks old. The kitten became part of their business (a group of ferrets is a business). She often slept in their hammocks and shared their food. Lady Tosca, Jester, and Koda Bear have gone to Rainbow Bridge.  Kaliyah remains as leader of the ferrets.

Brigid, Bobby, and Kaliyah are all a family but the interactions between adult cat and ferrets are different.

 Brigid and Kaliyah Fall of 2015

Brigid no longer fits in the hammocks but still visits the ferrets in the cage and shares a meal.  They still cuddle in other places.  It’s so cute to hear Brigid purring as she falls asleep next to the ferrets.

The ferrets still act toward her as another member of the business.  They play together although the style of play is a bit different. While all three play chase games, the ferrets also want to play wrestle- much to Brigid’s disdain.  She’s not thrilled to have a ferret pounce on her back in ferret play.

A few days ago, Brigid played chase with Bobby.  I heard Brigid “complaining.” I checked to see what was happening.  Bobby had latched on to Brigid’s lip.  This is a wrestle/ play behavior.  Ferrets often will latch onto each other playing.  I think this was a squabble.  All three of them periodically miss the signal to quit.  It also happens between the ferrets.  All was well.  Brigid’s ego was damaged.  Later that night, Bobby and Brigid shared a treat of Carivore Care.  Their relationship remains intact.

Another time, Brigid came off the loser in a chase game.  Kaliyah dove under the couch.  Brigid face planted into it.  I swear that I heard Kaliyah laughing.

In December, I finished putting up the tree right before the ferrets’ playtime. I have an artificial tree. Kaliyah climbs the tree at least once every year.  This year, Brigid decided to climb it as well.  Kaliyah weighs 1.5 pounds. Brigid weighs 13 pounds.  You guessed it.  The tree fell over.  No injuries to either cat nor ferrets.  Or the tree.  I don’t bother with decorations anymore.

 Bobby and Brigid Fall 2015
Go Seahawks!

No.  I definitely don’t bother with decorations.  There’s no point.



They are so different but put the differences aside to be friends and family.  I wish people were more like this.

The little ones give me a smile daily.  They’re always into something. Or planning something.

Find something that makes you laugh.  It helps.

“I solemnly swear that I am up to no good,” is a ferret’s life.  They haven’t learned the “Mischeif managed” part and probably never will.


 Koda Bear in 2010.  He was part of the business that raised Brigid.  He went to Rainbow Bridge in 2012.