Words and quotes speak differently depending on mood and experience. When I began this post last night my focus was on how one person can make a difference. One doesn’t have to be famous or rich in order to touch the world.
Tonight I see the mosquito.
Problems buzz in my head: sadness, fear, confusion, loneliness. They itch at my consciousness. I swat at them, trying to kill them or at least chase them away. They come back and I feel their bite again. They may be small in the grand scheme of existence and life. But they carry a disease called depression.
I have depression. It makes a huge impact on my quality of life. There are times that a crushing sense of hopelessness ride on my heart and soul. I withdraw from people and activities, I don’t enjoy life, I have no interest in anything. I exist.
Depression in one of the most common mental health problems in the United States. Approximately 14.8 million adults are depressed at some point in their lives. Depression is correlated with suicide. Depression responsible for over 2/3 of the 30,000 suicides reported in the United States annually. (1)
There is hope. Depression can be treated. My life is not always dark. At times I experience a sense of peace.
I receive care by a clincial social worker and a neuropsychiatrist. They are “small” in the world. However, they touch the lives of many and help them heal, or at least have a better quality of life. My friends and family are also sources of support and change.
I practice Tai Chi, yoga, and meditation. I stay physically active. Small things. Yet they make a difference.
Perhaps some day I’ll swat the mosquito. And it will be the “small” people,and actions that will get me there.
(1) Depression Statistics