You never know how much you depend on a car until you no longer have one. Yesterday, my neurologist advised me to stop driving until my seizures are under control. In order to drive again, I have to be six months seizure free.
Today was the first day going to work, sans car. A friend picked me up for work. She lives a few miles away and my house is literally on her way to work. However, I was on my own to get home.
Public transportation in a rural area is limited. In order for me to ride a bus from work home, I have a bus transfer and a walk of a mile at the end. The first bus takes me downtown, in the opposite direction of home. I then catch another bus that takes me to a road a bit over a mile from my house. It would take a little over an hour. Any combination of bus routes involve a minimum walk of a mile and a half. And will take over an hour to get home. Walking is not a problem. Walking after a day of overstimulation, exhausting.
Today, I figured the time is the same, it will probably have less sensory stimulation walking. I live about 3.5 miles from work. It took an hour to walk. The last 20 minutes, I had a screaming migraine. It was just too much overstimulation after a day at work. Scratch walking home.
I am not upset over the loss of driving. I understand why I can’t. My convenience does not trump safety of myself and others.
I miss the almost total loss of independence this brings. For the next six months, I have to depend on rides from friends or the bus for pretty much everything. That’s hard.