I haven’t socialized much since the brain injury. There are three friends that I socialize with at all. They understand the brain injury and the issues the challenge me.
I decided to go to a picinic by and for pagans in a park. The Diversity Say celebration was going on in another area but it wasn’t crowded or noisy in the picnic area. Sensory overload wasn’t a major issue.
The picnic was horrible. I was invisible. Two people “saw” me- one was the organizer. I tried others but it was awkward and short.
I went up to the Diversity Day. The politicians running for office, the people at the Baha’i and Muslim displays talked to me. I didn’t stay long as I was getting tired and the area was more noisy and busy.
The Baha’i and Muslims were the most open and patient. They spoke to me and saw me as a person. The conversations were interesting. They didn’t treat me like I am stupid. Well, honestly, the pagans didn’t treat me like I pm stupid. I was just invisible.
The politicians were fine too- but that was all politics. I bought a couple of bumper stickers.
When I got home and thought about the experience at the picnic, I cried. I felt so isolated and alone. Rejection sucks. I’ll stick with my friends here in the community and on Facebook from now on.